“Beauty is only skin deep, but ugly goes clean to the bone”
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Dorothy Parker (and my Dad)
Here’s the front of my house, it was a rainy day.

Here’s the front of my house, it was a rainy day.


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Here’s my backyard, through the screen.

Here’s my backyard, through the screen.


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Update

Ok, it’s been a while and I’m sure you all are wondering how it’s going.  (all two of you!)  Going good.  Still on this elimination diet and feeling great, but I crave strange things like popcorn (I really don’t like popcorn).  Anyway, Rach and I found a great rental house (pics up above), we get the keys on 10/1, my dad and sister also found a place, they have the keys now and can move at anytime.  I haven’t packed and have enough stuff for a family of 12 somehow.  Work is still crazy, beyond crazy.  I was never really trained, so I’m in a sink or swim phase now and sink isn’t an option.  Life has been a roller coaster, but it’s not a bad roller coaster.  Crazy busy works means I get to come back another day, I have a job, I am incredibly grateful for that!  I have more than one roof for my family, who can beat that?  Rachel is doing really well in school considering she doesn’t have one easy class, another blessing.  I finally have my health back, that is huge!  So, even tho there is chaos in my life, it all sort of equates to pretty good chaos (if that makes any sense)!

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I picked the worst week to give up cookies!

So last week I started this elimination diet, which is basically an eliminate happiness diet.  In the same week, I started my period, my boyfriend asks for a break, my daughter starts her second week in High School, my second job finally needs me, and it’s time to start looking for a new place to live, right now.  My lease is up the end of October, but we need to look now, since I’m pretty specific about what I need.  If I were a smoker, I probably would have picked last week to quit that as well!

Whew!  Not a good week, then yesterday was a horrible day at work, and I was totally a girl, crying and all!  I want a cupcake, I really want a cupcake, and a stack of blueberry pancakes.  Blueberries in unsweetened oatmeal is nasty!  I’m losing the will to keep up this diet thing, I want some pasta with cheese on it.

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Ok I didn’t go here, but I stumbled on it while browsing other people’s lives on the internet.  I’ve started this crazy diet where I basically deprive myself from most of the things I love.  It’s not really a form of self torture, tho right now it feels like it.  I could eat a small child or half a cow right now, whichever slows down long enough to cook up!  Anyway, my mouth watered when I saw this post about a whole entire Pie Off!!!!  I want to live in a place that has pie offs, I live in Texas, we have Chili Cook Off’s (or whatever you call them, pie is much better)!  I could mame a group of preschoolers for a pie right now, by the way.  But, I won’t.  I’ll go home for my chicken and veggies and try not to bite my daughter’s head off in the process because I’m friggin hungry, and I would cut you for a brownie right now.  This diet rocks! and it adds to my sunny disposition as well! ;)

Ok I didn’t go here, but I stumbled on it while browsing other people’s lives on the internet.  I’ve started this crazy diet where I basically deprive myself from most of the things I love.  It’s not really a form of self torture, tho right now it feels like it.  I could eat a small child or half a cow right now, whichever slows down long enough to cook up!  Anyway, my mouth watered when I saw this post about a whole entire Pie Off!!!!  I want to live in a place that has pie offs, I live in Texas, we have Chili Cook Off’s (or whatever you call them, pie is much better)!  I could mame a group of preschoolers for a pie right now, by the way.  But, I won’t.  I’ll go home for my chicken and veggies and try not to bite my daughter’s head off in the process because I’m friggin hungry, and I would cut you for a brownie right now.  This diet rocks! and it adds to my sunny disposition as well! ;)


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Not a great day

It’s been a while since I posted so I thought I’d give an update.  I have no pictures today.  My weekend was up and down, ended on a down note.  I have a big change in my life and I’m not sure how I feel about it.  Part of me is sad, but then again, I’m somewhat relieved.  This change has been coming for a while, and though I should have changed to avoid it, what steps I have taken were too small to make a difference.  I am working on some things that I believe will make a difference, but it’s still too late to fix what I broke.  You know when you get to the point where you can’t go back, and going forward isn’t an option either?  You can’t reintroduce yourself and try a fresh start because you screwed up so bad that your reputation preceeds you?  That’s where I am today.

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Good hair day continued...

Also, I got hit on twice today; once by some guy at work, and once at the mall; and got checked out by these 2 Abercrombie & Fitch model looking guys.  The guy at work, never in a million years even if I were single, sorry.  The models, may have just been evaluating my wardrobe choice today, but that’s ok, I’m still going with them checking me out.  The other, was a sweet guy at Fossil who awkwardly flirted with me.  Also not my type, but not insulting either.  He was also at least 12 years younger than me.  So, I’m feeling pretty hot today!  I’m still getting my hair cut, tho.  (It may be that I’m wearing my good ass pants and not just because my hair looks good)

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So this isn’t me, but I’ve decided we look alike because I have a long chin, too.  Anyway, you know how when you make a hair appointment you finally have a good hair day?  Well, I was getting sick of looking bad so I made the appointment.  Then discover that I am in fact having a good hair day!

So this isn’t me, but I’ve decided we look alike because I have a long chin, too.  Anyway, you know how when you make a hair appointment you finally have a good hair day?  Well, I was getting sick of looking bad so I made the appointment.  Then discover that I am in fact having a good hair day!


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One of my favorite quotes from my all time favorite movie. “No. The blues are because you’re getting fat and maybe it’s been raining too long, you’re just sad that’s all. The mean reds are horrible. Suddenly you’re afraid and you don’t know what you’re afraid of. Do you ever get that feeling?”

One of my favorite quotes from my all time favorite movie.

“No. The blues are because you’re getting fat and maybe it’s been raining too long, you’re just sad that’s all. The mean reds are horrible. Suddenly you’re afraid and you don’t know what you’re afraid of. Do you ever get that feeling?”


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This is me and the fella.  I’m not exactly his favorite person these days.  He’s miserable at work, and consequently in life and I’m not exactly the most supportive person. He travels for work, he’s gone 4 days a week and overworked when he gets home.  I miss him a lot, but show it in the worst possible way and everytime I try to talk about it (I know, guys don’t want to talk about it) I say and do all the wrong things which pushes him even further away.  However, why wouldn’t you want to know someone misses you?  The worst part, I feel and act like some stupid, silly school girl and I’m way too old for that.

This is me and the fella.  I’m not exactly his favorite person these days.  He’s miserable at work, and consequently in life and I’m not exactly the most supportive person. He travels for work, he’s gone 4 days a week and overworked when he gets home.  I miss him a lot, but show it in the worst possible way and everytime I try to talk about it (I know, guys don’t want to talk about it) I say and do all the wrong things which pushes him even further away.  However, why wouldn’t you want to know someone misses you?  The worst part, I feel and act like some stupid, silly school girl and I’m way too old for that.


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